Thanks for your encouragement, everyone. I didn't make it out of the house yesterday, but I showered, LOL... I can't believe it's come to this, celebrating such tiny steps! I live in a little cottage here in Ireland, no front yard as such but I do have space for a window box and it's always warm and raining... flowers grow like crazy. I think this can be this week's project, starting a little window garden out front.

March seems so far away, but at least I reached out for some help, part of me wants to fight this depression, and part of me wants to just give up. I can't tell you how much my heart was pounding when I called the counselling center. I picked up the phone, then hung up, then picked it up again, then hung up, at least 20 times. Got an answering machine! But left my number and they called back... Phew.

Thanks again, I'm really glad to have found this place