I haven't gone to the hospital. I'm kinda stuck in "what's the point"? Like, I don't even know what I can do for myself. I just don't know what to do. I'm on meds, I'm in therapy, though I haven't seen whom I've been seeing the last little bit, as it's run through my school, and school is closed until Monday. He's really great, but I realize that I can't handle not having therapy for the time period that I did. Maybe I'm like how I am because I'm going through withdrawal of medication. I don't know. I just don't know what I need. I'm really frustrated right now, so... I took melatonin, which usually works in about an hour, but nothing has kicked in, so maybe I'll take my trazodone. I'm going to do my best to sleep. I feel hopeless and alone. There aren't many people in my life that I really talk to. Just one friend and my care team I guess, which includes my psychologist and pdoc. I do occasionally talk to someone who deals with my accommodations. I just don't know what they do at a hospital that's really different than me not being there, other than being watched. I'm not worth anything.