My first therapist there was transference and counter transference with crossed boundaries on both sides. I ended up walking away from therapy one day because I could no longer handle the feelings it caused. It took me six years to seek out another one. Last year after both parents died, three dogs, my mother in law and my 23 year old neice, I sought out therapy again. It was going well until one day when I finally opened up about my son's shooting and assault for the first time ever, she fell into a deep sleep. I had to wake her up by coughing loud and moving my chair. That was it for me.

I have been seeing a different therapist for six months and was getting to a good level of trust but then on Thursday when we had a snow storm, he didn't bother to call to tell me that the clinic was closing down and he wouldn't be able to see me. I only knew because I have liked the Facebook page of the clinic. I could have very well driven the hour and fifteen minutes to my appointment but didn't because I knew they were going to be closed but it still bothers me that he did not call. Any other time I have been in therapy and they have closed down for a storm, my therapist has always called to tell me and to reschedule.

I expected him to call on Friday because they were back in business but he didn't call. Now I'm wondering if he really wants to see me as a patient and if he's just as screwed up as the other two therapists. I have felt in all three situations that the people I have gone to for help and who my insurance company pays are far more messed up then I am. I'm thinking if he doesn't call on Monday then I am just going to call the whole things quits and give up on our modern day behavioral health system.

Thoughts?