I'm glad it's getting better for you. it makes sense to falll back on old coping mechanisms I guess. Therapy is hard. I think you're right about trying to accept it, my T has said this too...I have a hard time accepting anything about myself and these behaviours are just so...well...unacceptable to me I suppose. I really thought I'd never be in such a bad place with it all again, I'm shocked really at how it's all taken hold. Feel like its ruling my life at the moment. Sometimes I worry that it's caused by therapy, but I guess I'm just looking for someone to blame.