This is possibly very true. Hard to say.

I do hear that you do not want a sexual relationship with this man. My first wife did not have a bf or gf before me. We were together for almost 7 yrs. After we broke up, she did have another relationship that lasted a couple of years. Since then, I believe she has realized that she is asexual. I figured she was asexual when we were together. So I do believe there are people out there that just don't have much of a drive towards a sexual relationship. Have you explored the possibility that you are asexual? I have found with the few people I have met that are asexual is that for them, their lack of desire towards a sexual relationship did not mean that they did not want to have an emotionally intimate relationship; that seems to be a different part of the overall puzzle in human sexuality. I am not saying that you were thinking in those terms either. Just throwing it out as information.