The die in a dream, die in reality, if you think about it can't be true because how would we know? If someone dies they can't very well tell us what they were dreaming about.

Are you sure you wern't disappointed because the dream afforded you an interesting perspective you wanted to explore? Dying wasn't so bad once you did it, only took a moment, etc. and there wasn't any pain, people were watching you on the news. That's not suicidal or out of touch, it was just easier/nicer in the dream. I think anyone would feel that way.

I would look and see what "disturbed man went wild with a gun in a public place" part of me was trying to get my attention. There's someone very alive under that depression I think :-) and she's pissed off at not being able to surface and take part in life.