I guess I’m just reaching out, trying to get out what is in my head. I am without doubt the worst I have been in 10 years. Suicidal, trying to survive one more minute of the torment. It feels there is no where to turn. I feel like everyone needs me and I can’t function. I feel like everyone would be much better off with me gone. Tears every time I speak. I don’t know wjat to do. I plan on seeing my psych doctor Tuesday but that seems like years away. I have no specific questions. Just needed to say it. I’m struggling. And worried for myself.