Gittering.....when was !earning tennis, my coach told me I was holding the racket wrong. Holding it in a way that always ended up causing my wrist to hurt every time I hit the ball hard. So he showed me the proper way to hold it so that wouldn't happen. Of course I was happy.no swollen wrist, longer game cuz wasn't hurting. But when I began using new grip..all was fine for a few minutes then I'd get involved in the game and my wrist would start to hurt & I'd start missing shots. Without realizing it, I'd gone back to the old way of doing it. So I had to remind myself constantly to hold it properly. Then one day, seemed like forever, I didn't think about it! Played a whole game holding it properly. Then once in awhile there would be a little twinge in my wrist and I'd just automatically adjust. Finally, it was ingrained& I just automatically did it right. Only once in a blue moon, I'd feel that pain in the wrist again. Hope this helps. Thanks for asking for clarification!



QUOTE=Glittering;5970978]DP, I'm so sorry you feel this way. This is what terrifies me. I feel extremely attached and alternate between feeling like I can't bear to see her because it's too painful, and then like I can't possibly live without her. So I relate to feeling trapped.

cavaliers, I'm afraid the tennis analogy is slightly lost on me as I'm the least sporty person in the world ...but I get your point and it makes sense. I'm glad there is a but, and I'm glad to hear you are working through it. At the moment it is just so addictive, it's like now it's an option again I can't stop. But I do wonder i sort of have to go through it again because the first time (and second, third..) I had no support..so this is like a re run with support. If that makes sense. Still hellish though.[/QUOTE]