Hey. Well I did manage to take a bath today (and actually washed my hair, which I had been avoiding for some reason). Not a big accomplishment but a win nonetheless. And I left the house, picked up my Rx, and hung out with a friend all afternoon/evening which was fun.

I have not managed to accomplish most of the things on my to do list, but I am feeling pretty okay at the moment (I think??). I got observed last week and it was a pretty crappy lesson imo that didn’t go how I planned but I still got a good review, which was a relief.
Also I am flying south for winter soon, I booked a long weekend that is coming up in a few weeks and which is giving me something to hang onto during this brutally cold weather.

I am planning on joining WW tomorrow, I have been watching what I eat but think I need more structure. If I can stick with it and preplan meals and track what I eat I know I can be successful with it. I really need some success in some area of life.

I want to start using my light box this week. And I am also considering rejoining a gym so I can start swimming again. idk if I am changing too many things at the same time?? I have a hard time making small changes, if I am in I jump in head first and tend to go overboard. I am not very good at moderation. In aanything.
Idk. I feel like these are all healthy things that I keep saying I will start tomorrow and then I never do so perhaps I need to just do them all and see wha sticks??

I am planning on going back to my dbsa meeting, I know It helps, and soon I will only be seeing my T every other week. it’s just hard to leave the house after coming home from work.

Maybe I should make a schedule and delegate tasks for each day. Ugh, I have so much to do it makes me want to just give up before even starting. Feel overwhelmed and tired and like I am ok but could easily crash if one more thing gets added. It’s all too much to carry but I can’t seem to prioritize anything except going to work. I am living in a state of triage, and everything that is not mandatory to stay alive has been put to the side.

Sorry this is so long, I was gonna make a thread but didn’t want to. Idk. Take care all. Hugs all around.