Well I am planning on joining WW tomorrow. And unlike in the past I didn’t binge all week and wait till I actually joined to start eating healthier. So that is a tiny win. I am gonna try to bring lunch almost every day this week.
The only thing that is giving me anxiety is I have a dr appt on Tuesday and I know I gained weight over the holidays and even tho I am trying to do something about itI know my dr is gonna focus on the weight, which is making me dread the appointment. I know he is just looking out for my health but it makes me feel like a total piece of shiit who can’t even manage to control what I put in my mouth... I feel bad enuf on my own I really don’t need more judgement than I already give myself.

Sorry I meant for this to be a hopeful positive post. Ah well. I’m actually feeling good about joining weight watchers bc I am looking it as a way to view food in a more healthy way. Anyway I think it helps that my coworker friends are eating healthier too, should be less tempatation if we r looking out for each other.
Take care all.