So I'm moving to Ecuador on Wednesday, to a country where I speak the language only barely (I can read and write but speaking is still very difficult to me), I will be living with a host family of strangers and they do not speak english, I will be all alone from my therapist and doctors, and on top of that I am trying so hard to get sober from alcohol/pills and I don't think I can do it.

I'm having panic attack after panic attack. There are so many "what if"s and unknowns. I'm scared about not being to get my medicine (I am going to have to find a new doctor to prescribe my xanax) and I'm scared my addiction problems will get worst. Most of all I'm scared this will send me spiraling into a horrible episode... depression or mania? who knows.

Does anyone have any experience with this? Or words of advice? Or even just some comfort, I could use that thank you.