Yes my psych seemed relutant to this too. He asked me why do I want to label myself so badly? I think that I'm seeing this diagnosis as part of my personality, it's like all the symptoms describe my personality and without them I'm nothing. But even where I live there is a lot of stigma associated to personality disorders.
Thanks for the replies! I'm trying to forget that therapist but it's difficult because my transference was really strong, it was an obsession. I think he's the one in fault there, like he's the therapist so he needed to be more open and honest with me instead of giving me labels.
He said that I never asked questions but it's hard for me to ask questions because I always think "maybe this question is stupid". What happened was not my fault but only a reaction to his behaviours. I remember in the hospital I sent him a message because I still was confused and desperate and he replied with "I'll hear you when you are dismissed". But now I've decided to walk away and never contact him anymore. Because he treated me badly. That evening, instead of saying "ill call the police" he should have waited and listened to me and my reasons. A good therapist doesnt abuse a client! Maybe he could say "this client doesnt want to pay me, why? Maybe I should listen to them and we can find a middle ground". Instead he reacted so negatively. This is a red flag and not a sign of a good therapy. I don't know if I'll pay him (we have this debt now) in the future, what's your opinion? I want to be better than this, I don't want to search for revenge, not paying is like a sign of revenge against him. But I don't want to see or write to him anymore. A part of me wants to pay him so I can see him anymore because of the transference thing, but I think it's no good for me (to see him). Not now!
Also there are a lot of red flags here and I can't continue the therapy with him because of this. I'm better than this, I have a dignity and I'm lucky that he doesn't live near my area but in another city far away. I only want to forget him. At this point I prefer to obsess over my psych or future therapist than over him! And I'm lucky that my psych seems gentle or at least not abusive at all (this is also because we are in the public service and it's more "controlled" than the private practice where a therapist could do what he wants).