yesterday I did someone a favour... was online with a lady called abby comforting her after a breakup

well, it turns out, abby is BP as well, and she was looking for support- so I mentioned this site to her, but she's not sure about it yet.

anyway.. we ended up spending most of the evening sending messages back and fourth and at the end swapped email addresses, so it was an okay evening.

I did feel suicidal a little bit and wanted to cut, but she talked me down and made me promise I wouldn't do it (and I didn't, so I'm proud of myself for that)

today I thought would be an okay day, but actually I feel quite low and suicidal.

not really any plans for today- shower this afternoon (maybe, if I can be bothered), but just watch tv and post here

tara wants to talk to me tonight because she's back from her christmas trip with her boyfriend, but you know what?

I don't think I can be bothered

that friendship had it's time a long time ago