Every week I spin out in a jealous rage over some small thing that triggers the coiling snake. My bf would never cheat on me. I know this but knowledge doesn't help when the emotion drowns me. I am still, after all these years, over sensitive, insecure, have angry outbursts, think about breaking up every other week. I still don't have a career I like or feel I'm very good at it. However, I am going to take a poetry class at the University in Feb. I may write a book! who knows...maybe this is my forte. I am in a relationship where I can open up and talk about my insecurities. He is understanding. I am fortunate. I don't have to work, again, I am seeing the positive. Everyone suffers in some way. We are all in this world together, doing the best we can.