I am sorry you are sad. It’s understandable you are sad. We are here for you

Please don’t give up. 47 is not 90. Most certainly it’s not too late for fun or meaningful connection.

At this moment (for at least next few months) I’d focus on obtaining either full time employment or two employments and complete independence (it might also open up possibilities of attracting higher quality men). Make enough money to rent your own small place.

I would also sign up for meetup groups that go out, movies, outings, hobbies, concerts, book clubs or the ones that aren’t spending money like walking in the mall. And I’d be out and about, not dating but having fun. Unless you live in the middle of nowhere there are ton of meetups for various interests and hobbies. That would keep you busy.

My therapist says that we subconsciously attract people at the level where we are at. And if we are a mess, we attract same kind of mess. I know it first hand and agree with my therapist.

If you feel lonely, it doesn’t always mean you must have a lover. It could mean you need to be busy and you need company of others, which don’t need to be men. I go out and do stuff with ladies groups from meetups every other weekend, we have ton of fun. If I was single, I’d go every weekend. You don’t need to sit home lonely. Sign up today and you might be going doing something this weekend if not earlier

Give yourself few months to get your life in a better order and then as you are more confident and are over last two dating experiences, get back on a horse!