No, I'm not coming off any meds, havn't been on any in years. The sliding fee mental clinic doesn't have time for those who are neither suicidal, homicidal or court ordered, and while they suggested meds from my MD I'm afraid to get them from him, the one time he prescribed me something like that I had a frightening reaction.
You may be on to something Perna, was I identifying with the wrong character in my dream? I hadn't thought of it from that perspective, I was too focused on the fact that I was disappointed to be alive, but when I read it a light went on.
Yeah, I'm kind of strangling in red tape right now, on several fronts, very frustrated with the whole system and flat out exhausted.
I guess it's a safe bet that I won't be living out that dream in any characters part, I neither own nor know how to operate a firearm, and don't believe that death would be an acceptable solution to my problems any more than drugs were.