I have a problem with eye contact in general. Looking away from my T is the only way I can begin to talk to my T about difficult stuff. It's defiantly a fear of being vulnerable, I've always thought of the eyes being a window to the pain inside, and I really struggle with anyone seeing that.. I can't withstand closing my eyes in the presents of anyone but in session I want to hide my face, which I think is kind of contradictory but it's the way it is. Anyway sorry digressed.

I always dissociate in session, were now working on better grounding techniques and using flash cards to describe feelings when the session is finishing to make sure I'm going out in a safe headspace. I have the tendency of saying im okay when I'm not at all.. I guess its something you just get use to doing.

I'll also add I've not been diagnosed with DID.