Do you have someone to talk to?
In a stressful situation it helps talking to someone that is both understanding and also have the ability to give you positive energy. I am glad to hear you got that nice feedback from your bonus-kids

I try to avoid energy-draining/negative people when not stable, and try to find things I think will help. Sometimes I do it by myself, sometimes it helps when I talk to others, just to distract me from spiraling into bad thoughts. (I call them black holes, when close enough I will get dragged in, so I try to avoid them at all)

Sorry to hear about everything that has happened. Except for the step dad thing, that is awesome. That must be one of the nicest compliment one can get. Imagine that- someone is grateful for you in a way that has had significant meaning in their life Try to hang on to that and relax as much as you can. Don't hesitate to contact someone who can help you if you need it.