The fact is that to pay him I need to see him and go to his ****in house and I can't do this now because I'm afraid I'll start getting obsessed. Now I'm taking a break from university and thank god that he lives really far away, in the same city of my university. I'll return to my university only in september. So I have a loot of time to detach! I'm trying to keep myself busy and to enjoy life (like seeing a guy, seeing friends, doing stuff)