I called today to get back in with my old Pdoc and T ( I moved out of state last April and moving back now. )

I can’t go back to the same office as they are at capacity for Medicare patients.

I will need to go to a new office ( same company) and see the NP. There is also only 1 T that takes Medicare.

I can’t even imagine starting with a new T , I saw the same Pdoc and T for 6 years, so I have no idea how to do T with anyone else, I don’t want to at all. The Np will probably want me off Xanax since so many providers are against them.

I think it’s likely I will just not go and dump my meds too.. I see no point for the whole mess.

Sorry had to dump this somewhere.

I see no hope.

Thanks to that butch for killing herself in my home and having to clean up the actual mess and all her shyt... great just add that to my ptsd and hope eventually it will go away.

Fml