I can really relate to your feelings, in particular the thoughts you harbor about being inferior and worthless. This is a morning when I think everyone is smarter, kinder, and more valuable than I am. And I just can't shake the feeling.

Plus, like you, I feel like those closest to me would be glad to be rid of me and my struggles. I actually had a friend say to me yesterday that she couldn't help me with my "issues" and that I make her feel useless. I think that's what spurred on my depression today.

And I see the paradox, irony, or whatever you want to call it of saying that such comments like what your mom made to you are about her instead of you, but it's true. When people encounter a depressed people like us, they focus on how we make them feel. I guess I see that as irony for me to criticize them for that, since I know my depression is such a self-focused struggle as well.

What I am trying to model with my depressed friends is the idea that we don't want to be fixed. We just want to be understood. To have our emotions validated. To not feel so alone in our pain.