i was emphatic with my current T that i would be totally destroyed if he didn't acknowledge me somehow... and that i didn't want him to be concerned about who i was with or whatever. He is ok with that. My last T hurt me pretty bad by not even acknowledging i was a human being in public... even though he knew i wanted him to at least smile or say hi like yours did.

i need to scan back i guess and see what the email issue was... but i would not react well at all to the cookies for breakfast reasoning. That's just me. i hope that doesn't offend in any way.. if it helps it is a good thing. i'm more oppositional than most and i have bad reactions to *anything* parental.

My first experience EVER was with a female T who got up and went into her little kitchenette area WHILE I WAS TALKING and got her supper and ate it. i didn't see another T for over 10yrs. i was sort of traumatized a little by that.. i could not deal with T eating now... but that's very likely because of her.

i wish i could introduce people with female T's to people who gripe at me for seeing a male. i think the mother-child transference is as powerful as any other sort. It doesn't mean it's a bad thing.. like *any* transference, it's hard a lot of the time, wanting to see T, talk to T, be in their life somehow. Any transference that gets processed is a positive thing IMO.

My T says that in hard times, when i feel disconnected, to do some imagery work... think about the feelings when i felt connected, remember what was happening, try to hold onto the feelings. Maybe that could help? Think, maybe write out in detail all the stuff that made you feel good that other day?