It felt so good to see my t again. I had t seen him since December 19 before ip stay. I had a ton to process: the suicidal feelings, faking my stability to family and the ip stay. Oh and that I broke it off with my boyfriend of a year on Saturday night.

He's still concerned about me but glad it's down to just a mellow depression now. I'm still struggling with the thought and stress of work. My blood pressure was as high as 152/101 in ip. He has me working on separating work and home. Easier said than done but I'm trying. Idk how he does it. I'd be worried
All the time if I dealt with people like me. He said he does still wanna try EMDR with me but not til I've been stable for a bit of time. He said he thinks I will feel better if we can do EMDR.

Lots of thoughts swirling in my head lately. I'm so thankful for a great T. He's been so patient and kind. Same with my Pdoc! I just wish they agreed on my diagnosis lol I don't know what to tell people when they ask what mine is.