To all of you who have been responding, thank you for your concern. I apologize for my rather morose statements last week, but (as you can tell) I was not in a good place.

Here's where we stand: while last week I was in kind of a 50/50 mindset as to whether or not to end my own life, I ultimately decided not to. This was because I realized that if I did, my old man would almost certainly have my remains transported back home and hold a funeral for me in his church, a church which I was raised in and utterly despise. It may sound a bit mean-spirited (for lack of a better term) to choose to keep myself alive out of spite, but I think we can agree that at least we achieved the desired outcome.

The problem is figuring out where to go from here. I have a few options - find a job here to tide me over until I figure out something else (which I've been doing for the better part of the last 20 years or liquidate some or all of the money I have in my 401K accounts and use it to travel around a bit and figure out where I want to get my "fresh start."

I will update you further in the future. At the moment I need to get something to eat.