I had my session today. About 45 minutes in, I learned that my therapist thought I was uncertain about continuing and seemed to think I was being critical (at least, it seemed that's how she was taking what I said until that point), when I thought I'd made it clear I wanted to continue, and that I was trying to bridge a disagreement by bringing things we do agree on. So for a moment, I was .

I spent the last bit of session doing what I thought I'd been doing for 45 minutes. I think she now understands that I want to continue, and also why I can't do what we had been doing. And I understand her problem, which is that I changed therapy vehicles midstream and she has to figure out how to adjust to that.

In the middle of all that happened this past week, I let go of my second weekly appointment, which is something I was working toward anyway, but it was going to be more gradual. I think that threw her as well, but it's kind of a separate issue. I need to put that money into retirement, so it's more about wanting to plan for a future, which is something I have never been able to imagine before. In the middle of last week's upheaval, I just expedited that move. It's going to be hard to adjust, but I'm glad to be able to start saving more money in this way.