Kiya, I like that about falling out of the nest with a cat at the bottom. LOL! I know how you feel. All I can hope is when it's time to fly I will be able.

I also have that tough exterior to keep me safe. I've had to in order to survive all my life. I just talked to T about this last week. He keeps telling me how strong I am and I'm telling him how week I am, it's part of my defense. All people think I'm strong because I don't show my feelings. I don't talk about my feelings. T is the first person that I ever started to talk about my feelings or even show them. I just recently started to cry, only in front of him. I was never able to cry at all before. I only cry at good feelings. I'm numb to bad feelings. I told him I haven't been honest by means of not telling him everything.