Dear MC,
I realized when talking about you today, I was talking about you in the past tense. Like you were a former T (not someone I'm seeing in 4 week), or perhaps dead. Maybe that shows where your place is right now in my mind? And I was thinking about how you would have reacted to a scenario I brought up to T that happened with H--and how unhelpful your reaction would have been. Is this just my coming to grips with reality about you? How unhelpful you often were? And maybe how the part that was super caring and supportive and accepting just feels gone to me? Almost, dare I say, dead to me?
LT