Hi all....
Was very good, was worried for nothing. We did our walk in the start and talked but there was a lot of silences so I thought, oh great... but he assured me it was ok and he just wanted to save the talk for in the room.

Well, it was fine, he apologized for the misunderstanding with assuming romance and assured me any or all feelings are ok and valid. He has not changed anything, he was still fun and silly. I am still allowed to text or call or email whenever.

He made up a treatment plan, which he has not done yet so that was nice, wants to break from what we were working on and work on my self esteem, he said DBT and CBT stuff. worksheets to come or something.

Before I left he asked if I was feeling ok about it, if anything felt off, if I had any further questions etc so it all feels the same, only I'm not wracked all these feelings I could not shake. (about the touch desire)

Oh and he did say too that he will still hug me, because it would make me feel more rejected and traumatized if he cut that off, so I still have that, we are gonna put my touch issues aside and visit them later when I can start to feel better about myself as a person.