i struggle with both mindfulness and meditation. this quote from the first article resonated: Mindfulness opens a door, and it's important to understand that more than one kind of experience can fit through that doorway.

i tend to end up more dissociated and less grounded, and sometimes just flat out triggered or in flashback. pretty much the opposite of what i'm trying to achieve.

i find doing mindfulness in very tiny bits, for just a moment or two, has been more effective. like, today i went for a walk to the beach and i noticed the water, then a while later looked in a rockpool and noticed what was in there, and then focused on some stones, felt the breeze on my face for a moment, etc. just little bits and pieces. it was enough to help me feel connected to the here and now, but without becoming overwhelming. mostly i was just walking at the beach.