Hugs. I hear you. Mine are too.

Caveat: I've never gone IP.

There's no guarantee they'll be supportive if you go IP. I've seen and heard parents be horrible to their teenage / adult kids seeing therapists or after they attempt sui and go IP.

YET! IP may be a way for you to get some breathing space from your toxic environment. A lot of mental illness is caused by a bad environment because of the chronic stress of that environment. You're not ill because of flaws in you, you're having issues due to your environment being unhealthy since you were very young. In my country, we get a lot of haze during haze season. In it, even healthy individuals can get coughs, breathing issues due to the sheer pollution.

If you have to, please go IP. Stay with us. You matter, you really do. Give IP a shot if you have to. *hugs*