OCD, PTSD and ADHD are supposed to be very different things.

I also doubt I have traits that match either of these disorders, let alone have the disorder.

No idea how they might relate. After almost two years, I see the person that interests me again every day. It is so strange now, having the person which you barely met now be in your life again. Like how the real person decoupled, or not, from the fantasy. She laughed about my joke today. It is surreal in some way. I hoped it would give me energy and make me feel upbeat. That would compensate, at least on the short term, for the desire and pain I feel. I hope this means that when she is gone for good for my life, something that seemed unbearable, will be bearable.