I can relate to your feelings a lot. Some days I will feel just fine...happy even. But then other days I feel just horrible. For me though when I have those good days sometimes I have trouble trusting them. Sometimes I also feel guilty about going to therapy...that I'm missing work, spending money and wasting the therapist's time. And the good days feel kind of weird. So I don't know if I actually *want* to feel bad, but it's almost like it is more comfortable sometimes.

But just because you have some good days doesn't mean that you don't really have depression. It doesn't mean that you are exaggerating or "milking" the bad days either. It means that you are having some good days and starting to come out of it, which is great. I also think though that because of those really bad days, which seem to be just lurking there, waiting, that you have to keep treating yourself gently...and keep working on your self-esteem, because that will protect you from those bad days in the future.

I'm sorry your parents don't seem more supportive. That makes it tougher.