Thanks, well... I doubt it will change, or i will change, i see no gain...

Meanwhile... right now i'm so pissed, work issues... I could explode. Its a minor thing, but its what infuriates me the most... schedule change at last minute when i had all well planned... and i keep this fake smile on my face, as if it didnt touch me... But i cant do otherwise...

I'm just so f***ing tired of all these duties, of things going wrong or last minute changes etc. I took meds to calm down...
I wish i could go to sleep and not only never wake up, but also never have to wake up. I cant calm down my mind today...