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Originally Posted by junkDNA
He asked if I broke it i said yes. I told him I'm sorry he said it's ok I didn't buy it ...its (another client name)'s. I said are you mad at me? He said no. He said go clean that up so it doesn't get everywhere (it was like gooey slime). I washed my hands . He teased me saying I broke it on purpose bc I don't like that client. I said that's not what happened ! I started to tear up and I don't even know why. I said now I'm crying! He said im just teasing you junkdna. I knew he was teasing and wasn't hurt about it but I really thought he was mad at me. It felt overwhelming and I cried. I think he felt bad about teasing me and sat with me over time, telling me it's okay and he knows it was an accident and that everyone's been trying to break it
I feel bad about it still and embarrassed that I broke it. I'm having a strong reaction to this and am not sure why.
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I spilled my soda once in T's office and just HATED myself for it. Really. I started to cry because I'd never hated myself so much.
I think it's related to feeling that it's somehow unacceptable to 'make a mess' - which is a terrible feeling to have in a T's office, where we just get our messy feelings everywhere.
I'm sorry the thing broke, and that your T teased you. It's okay - it's even okay to make a mess. These things happen.