I was going through a similar thing with faking that I was okay, when I was actually super depressed. Finally got admitted to IP, made some med changes and now I'm feeling better. I'm due for an appointment with my therapist tomorrow but my car won't act right so we're working together to figure out how to get me up there. I'm hopeful it will be a good session! I was given Ativan in IP but they won't give it to me again until I see my pdoc on the 22nd so my anxiety is giving me hell but I'll manage somehow. I hope you're anxiety eases up and try to take is easy as much as possible. Baby steps is what I'm doing, a little everyday until I'm back to at least 80% better.