Just found this thread. I guess I can post in here everyday instead of making my own complaint thread.

Got 4 hours of sleep. Day was alright at the start. When I’m depressed I always go to petco to see all the cats. Did that today and I felt a little better. Didn’t have too much anxiety while I was out of the house.

Got home and my mood shifted. My half brother was talking to his grandma through FaceTime. Made me miss my grandma. She practically raised me.

My step cousin is 12 and got diagnosed with bipolar a couple weeks ago and that’s all my step dad talks about when he gets home from visiting her. He doesn’t even care about what I go through every day. Not as long as a lot of you but I’ve been dealing for like 8 years.

Collapsed on my bedroom floor and cried for an hour. Then just laid there staring at a lamp for like 2 more hours. Kind of felt like I was going in and out of consciousness for some reason. Like I was dozing off but not sure. It seemed like I was there way longer than I actually was.

After that I sat in a hot shower for an hour until the water got cold. Washed away the feeling from crying.

That made me feel better. Then I was looking forward to playing bingo on an app but I don’t have enough credits or coins to play bingo or slots so kinda bummed now.

Just laying here now. Considering going to sleep. What really depresses me is that no one even seems to notice if anything is going on with me unless I’m bouncing off the walls manic. Some comfort would be nice.