Am having thoughts that are really distrubing been watching some tv with my husband when one of the people breaks the neck of another person even before that i was thinking this way but now i cant get it out of my head
its 2.30 AM and am too scared to sleep next to my husband or do anything like hug or hold him been lying with my back to him for most of tonight scared ill break his neck kill him i dont want to but i keep thinking am going to
i feel very triggered and upset by these thoughts i cant keep laying there with my back to him he thinks am in a mood with him am not am just scared i'll hurt or kill him
am evil thinking these thoughts why would i want to do something like this i think am ****ed up in the head really ****ed up