Hey Cielpur;

I hope you are well.

First and foremost I am really very sorry that you are triggered. It is very understandable.
I don’t know if this would be considered as betrayal but considering how it woke up the memories of unfortunate experiences and triggered you, I can say that it is very annoying. I wish you had not received the cards. But it is too late to fantasize it: so you can choose to throw away the Christmas cards.
Your sister did cross the line and was not considered of you.

[/QUOTE] Cousin #2 groomed me to have sex with him, sexually harassing me, on a family vacation when we were teenagers, then telling everyone he wanted to have sex with me. We were only 14 and 15 years old. He was always crossing lines like that, as I recall. Not someone you could trust.[/QUOTE] I am really sorry that this happened to you. I really am.

[/QUOTE] I can't help but wonder if my sister gossiped to our Cousin #1 about what she knew Cousin #2 did to me when we were teenagers, and she and Cousin #1 thought it would be a cruel joke to give Cousin #2 my street address?. [/QUOTE]

I would like to make a comment and please know that I am saying this only with care. It saddens me to see this... Why do you entertain these thoughts? In other words, why do you spend your energy, which I assume is limited, in visiting these scenario-villes? You might be right. May be they are talking about you. Yes, it is heartbreaking and very wrong but it is not in your control to detect or change others’ trashy behavior.
Please allow me to clarify: i have done this as well; in fact, I destroyed my life many times and I had to re-stitch my life back together. Just because I was constantly visiting these scenario-villes which may or may not exist. I should have focused my limited energy to my physical and mental health, career, interpersonal relationships.
The more you focus on what others are talking or thinking about you, especially those with whom you had conflicts, the more anger and suffering you will have within you.