I'm also trying to be open and as real as possible, but it's hard when I've been faking it to please others my whole life. I'm more real online because I feel I don't have to prove anything here. Also I think people here are being real. It's kind of an expectation and it's part of what I'm finding good about being here. I can practice relating genuinely and accepting myself as I am, with the aim of NOT putting a self-defining spin on things.