I am alive. I am becoming much more depressed. I lay in bed for a couple hours before making myself get up. It has not been this bad for quite awhile. Allot has happened to me over the past several months. Too much. Much too much. So I must look for the positive things that are in my life. I am alive. I have an adopted family who are taking care of me. I have a good friend back in Michigan who I talk to about my problems every few days. I survived a bad car collision without getting hurt much at all. My daughter is well. That is all I can think of now.