GoldenEve;
I always want to provide a feedback but you have so many people caring for you on this forum....I feel like my messages get lost... hence I hold back. With that being said, I will only make one comment and I hope you do not take offense to what I am about to say. I am saying this with all my compassion: May be you are still suffering because your new (previously ended) relationship helped numb the pain from your break up. You did not actually stay single and deal with it. I am trying to be as gentle as possible with my words here because I certainly do not want to come off as judgemental. But, i do not see how anyone could heal from such a big heart ache (and you had other problems, such as your job situation) if she/he chooses to numb the pain with a new relationship, rather than staying completely single, embracing the pain (no matter how hard it is) and deal with the horrifying questions that pop up.
I wish you the best. You have my support, along with so many other people in this forum.