Just keep your focus on your dad there sweetsunshine. Don't let your thoughts go to your siblings and any past drama. Focus on spending time with your dad. Visualize yourself there. Just you and your dad and who ever else you want to be there. Keep that picture in your head and maybe it will help you keep the panic thoughts away.

Trust yourself to dance through any drama that could happened. Don't project it into your vision just accept that if it happens you will survive. Don't give it a seconds thought. Or give it over to someone else to keep your siblings away if that's what you need to have happen.

Focus on you spending time with your dad. No other cares. Just see it and move towards it.

Blessings to you and your dad...... no need to feel you failed anyone. There is no failure in trying. Only in quiting. You will have your heart's desire in perfect time and in perfect harmony with your needs.

Be well