Hi, I think whenever you felt that yukky feeling in the pit of your stomach in addition to the usual fear/dread, that was sexual abuse. And just objectively, the positioning and nudity is sexual in my opinion. It's awful and weird to have to put things into neat boxes that don't work that way. But I think you GP was correct in surmising that elements or your abuse are sexual. I wish you well in your quest for healing. You deserve good things.