I'm mad about work
Guilty about parents
Hurt by friend
Worried about future
Needy with T
Frustrated about my life
Relieved but sad about love
Hopeless about myself
Cant see any way out so i numb myself
With alcohol and pills
But solves nothing.
And i try to feel alive and validate my own feelings by SHing and
Fantasizing about losing control, or by writing here...

Distractions? TV, work, pets, food... But i'm not sure i want distractions. I want it all open in the air, get it out, hoping to find a sloution that doesnt exist...