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Old Jan 11, 2018, 07:15 PM
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So much to respond to in this thread!
Peaches, when I was first diagnosed it freaked me out even though I had suspected it for a while too. Having someone tell me "You have DID" made it all too real in a frightening way for me. I keep wanting to say "Uhhhh,.... really??"
I think that was partly because I had the idea that DID was this thing that was portrayed in the movies and books and I am -nothing- like that. I would have called myself a high-functioning social avoidant neurotic if anything. But what you see here with me {does a twirl} is what DID looks like apparently. This is it. Well one of the ways DID manifests itself in apparently normal people anyway. It doesn't come with bells and whistles on, just years and years of hidden-from-the-world pain.

Ruh roh, yesterday the alter who fronted at therapy doesn't believe she has DID. it was the first time she had been to t for a time long enough to sustain back and forth dialogue and T did her best to help her connect to us others. She just can't. She needs to live her life, to work, to play, to live, to be normal. She told t if everyone else would just go away she would be fine because that is the truth I suppose. You say you "suddenly" believe this is the wrong diagnosis. Does that mean that up until very recently you believed it was right? I wonder if you know what the difference is between now and then that made you change your mind to believe it is now wrong.
Because you know I hate to point it out to you but believing it was right and now believing it is wrong is kind of.... well case in point, really.
Thanks, amyjay. I can't actually understand how I believed it for so long. My therapist is so convinced that I have DID that I've been worried she has mental problems of her own. I do take your last point...it's just hard to accept. I'm not to thrilled with the idea that my therapist is a nutcase either, so it's been hard to reconcile.