I don't hate people but I hate the games people play, so to speak. I am not a socializer so looking out a lot of people look 'portrayed' and fake to me in their social endeavors. I think this may just be reflecting myself onto others, though. When I socialize I feel myself picking the best parts of me to project and I feel like I have a lot to hide as far as depression/sad thoughts, my past etc. so I am aware that other people are doing the same with their public images. Hiding the less pleasant parts from view. I've only ever gotten along with the more seemingly transparent people who speak their first thoughts, even though I myself am not. I guess it is trust issues. But I do think if we all just stopped talking as you say to "be ourselves", well to me that is just hiding ourselves.
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