Just read a message from the manager to the department, that I kind of interpret as "if you don't maintain the level of focus and precision comparable to an actual computer you might not be getting further projects (and hence not getting paid)". I, of course, hate that, but it's kind of old news. The slightly newer news is that it sounds more and more like the death rattles, or rather a slow unwinding of a company.

Well, I've had the usual urge just to go and quit, but... I'm not going to get another job. After 4.5 years I've developed essentially a perfect diet and other routines suited to this job, or rather to working from home specifically. I've got no intention of just crashing and wiping all that out. Not after I've just gotten out of a depression.

And then, if I quit, the life at home is going to turn into hell... Well, I'm not 100% sure, but I think my mom is going to have certain issues with that.

So I guess there's nothing better to do than to keep on going. And hope that even if I'm not getting paid I don't get immediately fired and can sort of fake it.

On the other hand, I'm not going to beg them not to fire me... I'm just not into that sort of thing. So...

Oh, yeah, and here's hoping that the company doesn't unwind too soon.

Anyway, just wanted to talk that through, kind of with myself.