I think a lot about death...I will die pretty soon.... from natural causes because I am 86yo...unless something happens sooner...I struggle because I have never believed in any type of existence after dying...to me dead is dead...I started thinking about this at age 5....so what now...I want to have some more fun...and I want to help out here...I know some things that can really be hurting us right now...like the way we are eating and drinking...and the way we don't move around very much...I want to sit on my bottom and eat sugar...I am a binge eater of sugar...what help is there for me...

and I am starting to forget little things...