I use to never think there was a such thing as a bad person, but now I believe differently. I am the bad person. I have been looking at my life lately and am not proud of what it has become. I use to think I never had a problem with anything, use to think I was perfect, but now I'm not so sure. For those who do not know me, I have been going through a rough timre lately. I am still trying to get over the abortion. I know many of you are pro life, but I felt I did the right thing at that time. I mean I didn't want that child having to live knowing he/she was the product of an afair between me and my therapist- whom I thought I could trust. He lost his job btw. I really think I need to get help... LEGIT help for my sex addiction. The only time I feel whole is when I am sleeping with a man, and the afterwards I feel empty again, usually because they leave me or I leave them. I am very commitment phobic. Now my mom thinks I have an alcohol problem, which I guess I'm still in "denial." I just feel like my life is one big fraud and for those of you who believe in a higher power, why did "God" allow things like this to happen to me? And for those of you who were in chat last night, I tried taking an overdose to end all of this chaos I call life, but the pills didn't do it for me. I just feel like such a horrible person. Seriously death is too good for me. I know all these feelings goes against the grain of narcissism, but this is how I feel now, whether it's narcissistic or not, I don't care anymore. I just want my life to be normal. Sorry for the long rant, I just need to do it. Thank you for reading.