<font color="blue"> </font> I used to binge eat. It was my way out of any problem I ever had. But now I think I'm falling into an opposite ED. I obsess about my weight. I weight myself AT LEAST once a day- if not 3 times. I weigh myself with clothes on, without, before eating, after eateing- before and after drinking something. After I use the bathroom I even weigh myself. I look in the mirror and see the same 210 pound girl I once was. I was on diff. antidepressents, and stopped everything all at once. Then I stopped eating for a week- and dropped 30 pounds. Now I weight about 165 and everyone tells me I'm skinny. I don't see it- nor does the weight tell me I am. I'm still FAT! I just won't eat. I want to lose 30 more pounds to be of "normal" weight- but everyone is telling me not too- that I'll be too skinny- so then why do I feel so fat- and why do I weigh so much? Ugh! I hate this feeling. I hate that I lost my appetite so much too! is it just depression again?